tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66734122804715193452024-02-18T18:25:54.620-08:00What to Expect When You are Expecting Spina BifidaMoving past the diagnosis, a guide for preganat womenMrsKhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14083472994888254161noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6673412280471519345.post-85386864194522750482012-04-13T02:22:00.000-07:002015-05-17T15:37:41.587-07:00Below, you will Find the introduction and First Chapter from a book I am working on for Pregnant woman who have received a diagnosis of spina bifida for their unborn child. If you are a parent of a child with SB or an adult with SB, I would love your participation in the form of quotes for upcoming chapters. Just go to the link above called "How You Can Participate" for more information.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Preface:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">If you are reading
this book right now, you have recently been through a lot. Maybe your<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>first trimester “quad screen” blood test came
back with an abnormal result and they scheduled you for a level 2 ultrasound.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe it was at your first ultrasound, when
you were excited to learn the gender of your baby, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>that the technician paused for a while and
took lots of pictures of your baby’s head or back and then called in the doctor
who delivered the news. Maybe your heart raced. Maybe you cried. Maybe you went
numb. Maybe you thought, “There has been some mistake. There can’t be anything
wrong with <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my</i> baby!” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">No matter how you
got the news. No matter how gently the doctor said the words “spina bifida”, your
world stopped spinning for a moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And that moment: <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>that
frightening, breathless, life changing moment is something you have in common
with every other parent who has received a prenatal diagnosis of spina bifida
for their child.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The very first thing
you need to know is that <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">you are not
alone</b>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Although Spina Bifida, like
any birth defect, is rare, as far as birth defects go it is a common one. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it is rarely fatal.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Somewhere beyond
the walls of the doctor’s office where you first learned the news, there exists
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>a community of moms and dads just like
you who asked the same questions you are asking now. Who cried the same tears
and made the same wishes on all the same stars. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right now, they are doing errands, picking up
their children from school, coloring pictures, telling a joke, helping with
homework,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>running<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>baths, reading bedtime stories, and all those
other “normal” things that it may be hard for you to envision right now. They
eventually found answers, just like you will find answers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This book is intended to be a light post for
you in a place that can seem dark, scary and lonely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It contains information for what to expect as
you continue to go to doctor’s appointments, what<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>your child’s treatment options are, stories
from other parents, grandparents, and also from adults who have spina
bifida.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It won’t answer every question,
because the questions of a parent’s heart are many, but it will provide you
with a base of information for making plans.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>In addition to information, perhaps it will provide you with some hope
and optimism as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Things you
understand are never a terrifying as things you don’t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">To get the most
from this book, try to read it in order. Don’t skip ahead to the chapters you
might be most curious about. This book is structured with adult learning
principles in mind and builds on information as you progress. This technique
makes difficult and complicated subjects more understandable. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And, because it deals with such an
all-encompassing system as the spinal cord, spina bifida is a complex subject. Most
people know very little or nothing at all about spina bifida and this book
assumes that you are like most people; <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>it starts at the basics and moves on from
there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Also, as you read, please keep
in mind that most doctors a woman sees when she first “gets the news” are not at
all experienced with the spina bifida diagnosis. OBGYNs<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>treat women, not prenates<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>or children.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Many OBGYNs only see a few cases of spina bifida in their careers and because
of the scope of their practice, don’t know what happens with the baby after the
baby is born. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all, they have a lot
of pictures of newborns on their walls, but none of little children. So, don’t
expect a doctor who specializes in female reproduction to know a lot about
pediatric neurology. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He/she will know
the basics only. Because of this, and because of a desire for full disclosure,
the diagnosing physician will sometimes give a “worst case scenario”
explanation about what to expect from babies with spina bifida.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Adding<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>to the confusion regarding the information you first received, was your
emotional state when you got the news. Nobody thinks or learns well under
extreme stress.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The doctor may have
meant or said one thing and you may have heard something else. This book is NOT
suggesting that you forget what your OBGYN or any other doctor says!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, as you read, you are encouraged weigh
the information you first received and compare it to more <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">specific</i> information from specialists. Eventually, you will see a
doctor who can tell you, not about spina bifida <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">in general</i>, but about your child <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">in particular</i>. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are many places around the country that
have specialized equipment and entire teams of people you can talk to at once
to get information about what is going on with your child. We will discuss some
of these specialty centers in a later chapter about treatment options. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">You also need to
be aware that your best source individual medical of information will come from
a pediatric neurosurgeon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You will see a
lot of different kinds of doctors as you progress through your pregnancy and
beyond.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You will not see the pediatric
neurosurgeon often before the baby is born, but he/she will become your
greatest knowledge resource regarding your unique case.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We will be discussing the kinds of doctors you
might be seeing, when you will see them, and what to expect from an appointment
with each of them in Chapter Three.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">One final note: No
one will have exactly the same experience as you because each case of spina
bifida is unique. The most honest answer you can often get is often the hardest
to hear: “we don’t know.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span> Uncertainty can be
its own kind of hell: an icy one that leaves you feeling cold and frightened. The
upside is that even amid the uncertainty there are still some things you <u>can</u>
know and <u>can</u> do to prepare yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Just remember, your son or daughter is a unique individual and no degree
of spina bifida will ever take away how sweet his kisses are nor how soft her
chubby, baby hands feel when they latch on to your finger.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You child is more than a diagnosis. Your
life is more than a series of medical appointments.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You may need to remind yourself of those
facts from time to time. Something good does come out of this difficult time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">The road to child
birth can seem like a very long one <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>when
you are facing something that most parents never have to ….but focusing on the
prize at the end- that beautiful baby that your body is nourishing, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>can be the light in the middle of your dark
place. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Chapter 1:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Looking at your own emotions.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Even as you have
questions about what is going on with your baby, It is important to take note
of what you are going through personally. Your own emotions will factor heavily
into the experiences<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>of the next few
months. In order to gain the knowledge you need to know and in order to stay
functional in the face of fear you will need to deal with these emotions and
not push them aside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In this first
chapter, we will look at several emotions that are typical of an individual in
a high-stress situation such as the one you now face.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You need to know that there are no right or
wrong emotions. Having thoughts and experiencing emotions that’d you rather not
experience does not make you a bad mom or a bad person. Thoughts and emotions
just <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">are</i>. They happen. They are a
part of human existence. To acknowledge them does not mean you can ever fully
control them, put them aside or “be done with them”. Emotions are not such easy
beasts to control. However, by acknowledging them, you are equipping yourself
with the tools you need to do battle with them and keep them manageable.
Without your wits about you, your emotions will <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">easily</i> overwhelm you and make your daily living seem that much
harder.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Many
women look back fondly on the experience of being pregnant. They remember how
they got complements on their “glowing” skin or how lovely and long their hair
and nails became.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But most women, if
they are honest, also talk about how difficult it was when their feet got swollen,
or how embarrassed they felt when they couldn’t get out of their own couch
without a helping hand, or even how exhausted they were or how much everything
began to hurt. Being pregnant is never easy. It is that much <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">more</i> difficult when things don’t go as
planned.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>When
a little girl gets her first doll, society is preparing her to be a mom and care
for the next generation. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By the time
young girls get to elementary school, most have chosen favorite names to bestow
on their imaginary children. During play, they nurture their dolls, caring for
them when they are “sick”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They practice
enforcing rules, sending poorly behaved dollies to the time-out chair.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They send their imaginary children to school,
take them to doctor appointments, and ask them to finish all their imaginary
vegetables.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once a girl gets to high
school or college, playing house may not seem so interesting any more, at least
not in the way it was before… but those first ideas of motherhood remain, ready
to be embellished at a later time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All
that early play, childish or not, translates into what we expect out of
parenthood, and out of ourselves as adult members of the family unit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As further maturity happens, and a girl grows
into a woman ready to begin her own family, she plans out her life as a mother even
more meticulously than when she was younger. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Even if a woman
gets pregnant unplanned, she still has some basic ideas about what to expect, and
what she wants from the experience. She may have some idea of the kind of
activities she wants to do with her child, what kind of school she wants him to
go to, what sports she wants him to try etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>All these products of adult imagination can come crashing down when you
are told that the child you envisioned doesn’t <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(or may not) function the way you thought.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Using that same vivid imagination employed in
childhood, it is easy to picture wheelchairs taking the place of bicycles. You
see crutches instead of soccer balls.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That swing set in the back yard?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You replace it with a place to do physical therapy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The school you wanted to send him to? You now
wonder if he will be “smart” enough to go there. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>And
the imagination doesn’t stop there. Mental images of happy play dates in the
park get replaced by ones of your darling baby asking you with teary eyes
“mommy, why can’t I run like the other kids?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Your heart breaks into a thousand pieces.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Your pulse quickens and fear grabs you as
tears run down your face. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You ask
yourself the same questions over and over, hoping to find an answer for a
situation that hasn’t happened <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">and might
never happen</i>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At least not like you
imagine.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Your
imagination is a beautiful thing. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If
used properly, it will provide solutions to your most puzzling problems. If you
let it run wild on you though, it will crush you under an impossible weight of
fear and dread.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes! It is absolutely natural
for you to try and imagine what the future will be like. But before you let
yourself get too upset with anything you picture, remember that it IS just
imagination.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One vision of the possible
future.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A vision impacted strongly not
only by your still growing body of knowledge about spina bifida, but also by
the level of emotion rising up within you every time you think of it- and if
you are like most…you are hardly ever NOT thinking of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all, this person is growing inside you.
Your food is her food. Your air is her oxygen. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is natural that you want to daydream about
how to design the nursery that will keep her safe and warm after she leaves the
security of your belly. And it is frustrating that you suddenly feel robbed of
the pregnancy experience you planned by having to think of some very difficult
and hurtful things. In a perfect world, nothing would be wrong with your baby.
Spina bifida would not exist. You wouldn’t have to be afraid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">After all, most
women have nothing else to ponder than what brand of stroller they want, what
style of tiny clothes to buy, or if they should go with a middle name from her
side of the family or his. You obviously have bigger puzzles to solve, and you
are using a lot of mental time and energy in thinking them over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Although you will need to devote <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">some</i> mental energy to learning about
your son or daughter’s condition, try to limit the way you use your imagination.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Especially in the beginning. We will discuss
tips for getting a handle on your thoughts more in Chapter<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>8.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For
now, just realize that most of what you are imagining is far worse that the
reality you face. </span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";">Many
women who have something go wrong during pregnancy experience feelings of guilt.
If you haven’t felt it yet, you likely will at some point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You should know upfront that any guilty
feeling you have is not earned. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You did
not cause this to happen. Most women want to believe that if they eat right and
take their vitamins, they are assured a perfectly healthy baby.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Truthfully, this is a fantasy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nobody has that much control over anything.
There wasn’t anything wrong you did to cause this. There wasn’t anything “more
right” you could have done to prevent it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Folic acid</b> (1) has, for many
years now, reduced the number of cases of <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">neural
tube defects</b> (2) but it does not totally prevent them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Research shows that taking the recommended
dose of folic acid (400 mcg or 0.4mg a day) reduces the occurrence of neural
tube defects by anywhere from 20 to 50%. (</span><span lang="EN" style="color: black; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Boulet, Yang, & Mai, 2008) (Czeizel, 2009). This reduction in
occurrence means folic acid does a <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">lot</i>
to prevent neural tube defects but it cannot do everything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You will see as you progress through subsequent
chapters, that spina bifida research is ongoing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right now, we know of many contributing
factors: <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some are genetic and some are
environmental. There are certain anti- seizure medications that have been
linked to an increase in risk for having a child with a neural tube defect (</span><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Wide<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">, </span></sup>Winbladh & Källén,
2004)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">There are certain ethnic groups, such as people of Hispanic
origin or Irish decent that have a higher incidence of spina bifida (</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"><a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Agopian%20AJ%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Agopian
AJ</span></a>, <a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Canfield%20MA%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Canfield
MA</span></a> & <a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Olney%20RS%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Olney
RS</span></a> et.al, 2011). </span><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Catching the flu during early pregnancy can also be a
risk-factor (</span><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/search?author1=Michele+C.+Lynberg&sortspec=date&submit=Submit"><span style="color: windowtext; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"> Lynberg</span></a><a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/content/140/3/244.short#aff-1"><sup><span style="color: windowtext; mso-bidi-font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1</span></span></sup></a>, <a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/search?author1=Muin+J.+Khoury&sortspec=date&submit=Submit"><span style="color: windowtext; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Khoury</span></a><a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/content/140/3/244.short#aff-1"><sup><span style="color: windowtext; mso-bidi-font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1</span></span></sup></a>, <a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/search?author1=Xinpei+Lu&sortspec=date&submit=Submit"><span style="color: windowtext; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;">Lu</span></a><a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/content/140/3/244.short#aff-1"><sup><span style="color: windowtext; mso-bidi-font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1</span></span></sup></a> & <a href="http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/search?author1=Teofil+Cocian&sortspec=date&submit=Submit"><span style="color: windowtext; text-decoration: none; text-underline: none;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cocian</span></a>, 1994)</span><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Being obese can slightly increase your risk (</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"><a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Shaw%20GM%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Shaw</span></a>,
<a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Todoroff%20K%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Todoroff</span></a>,
<a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Finnell%20RH%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Finnell</span></a><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>& <a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed?term=%22Lammer%20EJ%22%5BAuthor%5D"><span style="color: blue;">Lammer</span></a>,
2000).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Shoving extra
vitamins down your throat is not <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">necessarily</i>
the answer, though in some cases it can make a difference.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Your child’s spina bifida may have occurred
because of another factor or combination of factors. Somehow avoiding that flu
virus might not have made a difference. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Dropping a few pounds before you got pregnant
might also not have prevented the problem. The bottom line is, your guilt
unfounded.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“If I’d been skinnier or more
healthy before I got pregnant…”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“If I’d
not forgotten my vitamin that day…”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“If I
ate more vegetables…” All these thoughts begin with the same little word: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">“If”</i>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Such a nasty little word!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
holds every possibility but no actual solution. You cannot go back in time to
“fix” whatever happened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And if somebody
kindly loaned you a 1988 Delorian equipped with the right machinery to send you
back a few months into your past, you would likely have no way of knowing
exactly which factor you should change.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Spina bifida is what clinicians call “complex”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is hard to define the exact mix of factors
that cause it. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">By
hanging onto any guilt feelings, you are only kicking yourself while you are
down. The words “spina bifida” already knocked you off your feet and punched
the wind right out of you. Don’t <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">help</i>
the diagnosis keep you on your knees by continuing to kick yourself for
circumstances beyond your control.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes,
spina bifida happened. Yes, it sucks. Yes, you may even have some of the risk
factors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But does everybody who has your
risk factors have a child with spina bifida? No.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s why they call it a factor. It can be
one contributor of many. You owe it to yourself and to your child to drop the
self-blame.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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women report feeling fear their child might blame them, and so they hold onto
the guilt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Remember the first part of
this chapter? The part about imagination? That mental image of your child
blaming you is just that…Imagination!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Your child will love you just like anybody else’s child loves them. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And yes, your child will eventually grow up,
get mad and yell random things at you just like everybody else’s teenager.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But to put in it perspective, remember, you
will be the one responding to her midnight cries for a bottle. You will be the
one to put band-aids on his boo-boos.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You will cook her favorite dinner when she’s had a bad day. You will be
there to cheer him on at the school spelling bee. You will be the one she
shares her secrets with. You will be the one he waves to proudly when he wins. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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when your darling little angel hits those pre-teen years, just like any other
tweenager, she will probably yell the infamous “I hate you!”. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not because you deserve her displeasure, but
because you were a good mother who wouldn’t let her do something that was not
in her best interest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You child will
likely not really blame you for any of her problems. And if she ever does blame
you for anything, it will be because she is just like any other child who
sometimes blames mom and dad for irrational things. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">“I hate this family!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“You guys
are so unfair!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“You are nothing like
Bobby’s parents! Bobby’s parents are cool!”</i> This is normal, if undesired,
adolescent behavior, and there are other books out there to help you with
teenaged behavior when that time comes. This book is to help you with the spina
bifida part of things, and as for your future child or teenager blaming you for
spina bifida, you have no real worries.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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emotion we should discuss is anger. You will feel that emotion intensely from
time to time, and it can be healthy. Anger can give you fuel to fight, and
fight is something you will need to do every once in a while. Most parents will
tell you that the <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">proper</i> terminology <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>is technically “advocate for your child” and
not “fight”, but regardless of how you say it, it means the same thing. One is
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can be bad for you too, however, if it is directed toward yourself as a result
of misplaced guilt…or directed unjustly at your partner/ close family
members.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It will be very easy to get mad
at your partner or significant other in the coming months. Many marriages and
long-term partnerships fail as a result of a stressful situation such as this
one. There are some tips for keeping things going smoothly with your partner in
Chapter 8. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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also sure to encounter a lot of uneducated people who will say upsetting <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>things about you, your baby, or about spina
bifida in general. These people will make you mad. You may feel the urge to
educate them in unkind ways. Still, despite the fact that someone is sure to
say something stupid to you somewhere along the line, it is important to be
judicious in how you respond. Try to remember that many people mean well and
simply don’t know what to say. So, rather than leaving an awkward silence on
their end, they say something goofy. If you can, attempt to assess these
comments by their intent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Also, try and
have an outlet person you can go to. A partner, a parent, a sibling or close
friend who understands and who has taken it upon themselves to, like you,
become educated about spina bifida. Also, there are several on-line communities
dedicated to people with spina bifida and their families (Listed in Chapter
10). These forums can also be wonderful outlets. So, whether it was a nurse at
the doctor’s office, an acquaintance in a social group, or stranger on the
street who wanted to talk about your belly bump… and you find yourself fuming
as a result of conversing with them, go to your chosen outlet person and
VENT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Talk it out. Rant it out. Let
someone show you some support. It helps.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Lastly,
when it comes to anger, sometimes your anger may not have a clear target. You
might feel simply “mad at the world” for what you and your child are going
through. You might feel angry at people who have healthy babies or at women who
are having an “easy” pregnancy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
might feel jealous and ask yourself “why me?” This too is perfectly normal.
When you begin to feel this way, you can go to your outlet person to talk.
Also, if your doctor has said that it is alright for you to do so, consider
taking a walk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Physical activity can not
only get your mind off your frustration by giving you a change of scenery, it
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natural to feel sad, to grieve as though you have lost something…because you
have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As we mentioned before, you are being
forced to re-evaluate the way you “always thought things would be.” Although
nobody can tell you in utero exactly what your child will and will not be able
to do, you may get some idea that your son or daughter will be physically
limited. Thoughts of them not being able to play t-ball or go to ballet class
may deeply grieve your heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is
easy to put yourself<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>in your child’s
place and ask yourself how you would feel. Left out. Sad. Lonely.
Rejected.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And you begin to feel the
sadness for your child.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is another
point to remember: your child is not you. This statement is basic and may seem
like common sense, but it is a mistake almost all parents are guilty of at some
point. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the beginning, we assume
things about our children. Because they are part of us, because they come from
us, we make the assumption that they are like us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And sometimes they are. But sometimes they
are not. Often parents and children have very different personalities. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It eventually becomes obvious however, that children
have minds of their own. They make decisions and choices that we would not make
for them. Although we may not always agree with our children, ultimately this
autonomy is what all parents want. We all want a child who can make sound
decisions on his or her own.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This level
of autonomy is more than attainable for a child with spina bifida. As you will
see in chapter 9, adults will spina bifida hold down jobs, have lasting
relationships, have children of their own, purchase homes and do all of those
self-sufficient things any parent could want.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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parents have to look at to understand why their child may not be as upset as
they are about balet class… is the big picture of autonomy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The pain <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">you</i>
feel for your child is not the pain she will feel for herself. When a person
has an ability and then looses it there is grief over the loss. But somebody
who never had something cannot miss it. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For your child, whatever he can do is the
standard for him. It’s what he will consider normal. He will not grieve in the
way you grieve for him. His experience is not necessarily as tragic as you
might imagine when you put yourself in his place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As a parent you have the opportunity to teach
him how to view his limitations. To inspire him to overcome his obstacles. To
teach him social skills that will allow him to gain close friends who will look
past any mobility equipment he needs, because he is such a great guy to be
around. It will be your influence that encourages him to try new things and to
explore careers options early on that will give him satisfaction, pride and
economic stability.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Concert violinists
do not need to be able to run. Artists and writers need not climb.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You do not need to feel your feet to become a
lawyer, a politician or a police dispatcher.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The range of capabilities of a child with SB vary widely. Some children
have full physical abilities, some can walk short distances.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Surprisingly, you don’t really need to feel
your feet to be able to walk. With practice and braces, many things are
possible. Often wheelchairs may be needed, but often not. While you can’t know
what you child will be able to do or what limits he will face in regards to
physical ability,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>as his parent, you can
help him do all that <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">he</i> can do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They make bicycles and tricycles that are
peddled with hands and not feet. You child needn’t be excluded from riding with
his friends or from playing outdoors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He
doesn’t have to be left out of sports. In many cases swimming is an option. The
breast stroke, for example, requires more arm strength than leg strength. Many
districts also have adaptive baseball or in colder climates offer a game called
“sled hockey” which is similar to regular hockey except all participants must
ride sitting down on sleds. These areas are where you imagination <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">helps</i> you. In the future, when you know
what your child’s ability level is, and what he likes to do, you can help him
dream up ways of doing it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For now
though, while you are waiting for your answers about who your child is, whath
is favorite color crayon will be, and what nerves in his back have been
affected by spina bifida, try to remember that your grief is not his. He will learn
a lot about what is tragic and what is normal from you, but his thoughts on the
subject will not be exactly like your own. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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numb is also part of the rollercoaster ride that is a pre-natal diagnosis.
Moments of apathy, of feeling like you are “here but not here” will happen too.
This is your mind’s way of helping you cope with an overwhelming situation.
When you reach certain saturation points, and get really overwhelmed
physically, mentally and/or emotionally, you may feel like everything “shuts
down” for a while. After a time, this numbness will pass just like all the
other intense emotional waves you experience. It is expected that you will
cycle through a variety of feelings in the beginning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By dealing with them one at a time, you can
help yourself manage them. You should know that if you ever feel you cannot
manage your emotions, there is no shame is seeking the assistance of a
professional counselor to talk to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is
for situations like this one that the counseling profession exists. If you
don’t have insurance that pays for counseling, often you can contact your
county health department and they can point you to a free or low-cost counselor
who will base his fee on your income.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There are options for help out there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You can also discuss any emotional concerns you have with your OBGYN.
For while your OBGYN may not be able to give much information about the issues
your baby faces, he is an expert on the ones you face. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is familiar with any medications you can
safely take during pregnancy and he may also know of some community resources
for counseling that you can go to.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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